Hold on to something, this is going to be a bumpy update.
I wanted to do something to surprise him like he did to me last week in the hotel. He’s been complaining frequently about how stressed he’s been with some work related shit, so yesterday I had this idea of booking a day for him on this really fancy spa (he had mentioned before how much he likes doing this from time to time, and it was perfect since he was going to have the day off).
anyways, I took him there and he enjoyed it a lot. His surprised face was really cute when he found out, he was very thankful. The place was really nice and expensive, so I guess it was an amazing experience. once he got back from the spa, I could see how relaxed he was, It was actually funny lol. When I asked him how it was, he started telling me about all this kinds of massages they offer there, then he mentioned this specific one he got from a male professional. He told me back on his “straight” days, he had been massaged several times by men but he felt absolutely no tension, sexwise. Then he mentioned how it was different this time. He said the masseur was a very attractive and strong man who seemed to be in his late 20s, and how it was kinda weird feeling this for the first time.
At first my mind was like “why are you telling me this?”, it kinda freaked me out, I gotta say. But then as the conversation continued, he started talking about his taste in men, and asking what I usually admire in a man as well. This definitely took me by surprise. He felt very comfortable talking about this with me, I could feel that. That was a very nice conversation we had. We both got to share a lot of stuff about ourselves. Then at some point, the subject turned to porn. He mentioned how it was when he first started browsing thru gay porn, who are his favorite porn stars and onlyfans accounts. I took the opportunity to share some of my interests as well.
sooo, everything was fine at that point. But then he suddenly said “do you know this website, lpsg?” I almost passed out. Of course this was about to happen, I mean almost every man who are interested in man knows about LPSG! Anyways, I did my best to continue talking as naturally as possible and hear what he was saying. He was talking about how it’s easy to find stuff about almost every onlyfans account in LSPG, and how amazing the website is, with the all the forums and support from guys going thru the same stuff as him. He said he spent almost an entire day browsing thru the website when he found out about it a couple of days ago.
anyways. We were there, having this most amazing, blunt, honest conversation. He felt comfortable sharing some very deep intimate stuff with me, things he probably never let out before. I just felt I had to be honest as well. it just felt right, you know? I don't know where I got courage from, but I ended up telling him everything about this thread (better for him to find out from me than stumbling on this thread out of the sudden, that was my thought).
Long story short, I’m in love with this man. He’s incredible in every single way, and he keeps surprising me. Of course he got very confused once I finished talking, so I gave him some time to process it all, I left him by himself for an entire hour so he could read the whole thread.
Once I got back home, he wasn’t in the living room. I kinda panicked, thinking he’d took off or something. Then I went to my bedroom and there he was. His phone was laying on the bed and he just stared at me for a couple of seconds. I couldn’t say anything, I completely freaked out. But then he just walked towards me and kissed me. That moment. That’s definitely something I’ll never forget. The way he was gently touching me was different from any other interaction we ever had before.
I still can’t believe it. I remember he said “it was like taking a trip inside your mind” or something, and “being able to see things from your point of view”. Then he mentioned how all the updates reminded him of how it was exciting in the beginning when we used to be just gym buddies, more than a month ago. then he kept thanking me for the opportunity to have this all registered somehow. Anyways. As if I wasn’t already at cloud nine, he just said “oh, and don’t worry about us, I’m not going anywhere“.
I don’t know what the future holds for me and him, but I know it’s something amazing. I’m not afraid to say this again, I’m completely in love with that man!! Now he finally knows about all of this and I couldn’t be happier. I asked him if the fact that the thread was public bothered him and he said no. He even encouraged me to keep posting, for the sake of making it a record for us and also for the support of you guys, as long as it keeps our identities private, of course. And who knows, maybe someday he feels like posting something here too (if you’re reading this, no pressure babe!
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