I realise that this is already quite a long post so I'll save the rest for another post as I don't want to read too big a wall of text. It was a really interesting pre-massage experience which paved the way for a very memorable time.
So on the day of the massage I wake up quite early as I feel really excited. I go to the gym, swim, have a shower and then head for his place. When I arrive, he opens the door with a beaming smile and he ushers me in eagerly. He's wearing a vest and quite short shorts with his hair tied up again. His flat is really warm and smells good with candles lit in every room. We go to his living room and his furniture is pushed aside with a large massage mat on the floor. We sit on the mat, have a glass of water and review the "agenda" of the session which is mental tantra, cleansing tantra and physical tantra.
We start the mental tantra with a series of breathing exercises. We sit facing each other on the mat as we breathe deeply. He takes my hands and holds them securely, squeezing my palms indicating when I should breathe in and releasing the pressure for when I should breathe out. He pulls me slightly closer to him and gets me to lean back at different points, continuing to breathe deeply. He occasionally offers me "invitations" that encourage me to let go. He tells me to be in touch with my feelings as much as his body. If I need to let anything out, let it be free. He gets poetic and talks about laughter being tension leaving the body and how tears are nourishment for the soul. Today it a connection of souls.
He gets to his feet, not taking his hands off mine, and helps me up. The cleansing tantra will now begin. We go to his bathroom, still holding hands. His bathroom is more of a wet room with a large open shower with a tiled "bench" under the head. He looks me in the eyes and says it is time to free the body. He gently pulls my shirt over my head, folds it, and places it on a little table. I start pulling my joggers down but he shakes his head and pulls them down for me, taking my socks when I step out of them. I'm already rock hard at this point and I think he is too looking through his shorts.
He pulls me close and places my hands on his vest, encouraging me to do the same. I follow his routine and pull off his vest revealing his slender torso with salt and pepper chest hair. I kneel as I pull down his shorts and almost get poked in the eye when his erection is freed. He leads me to the shower, pulls me into an embrace and turns it on. I let out a cry as the water is cold and tremble slightly but he holds me close. He strokes my back comfortingly and we stand there for what feels like ages before he turns the heat up.
I relax as the water warms me. He soaps his hand and very tenderly washes me as I stand there. Avoiding the face and hair, every part of me receives his touch and it feels blissful. He then gets me to do the same to him. I think I'm quite eager and spend a lot more time on his nice ass and groin than he did with mine. He gets me to lay down on the bench facing up to begin open myself up to the physical tantra. He cradles my head in one hand while he lathers me up and then lets my head rest on a cushion while he uses a slightly coarse cloth on me. I stay hard the whole time and when most of the suds are gone, he slowly strokes me. I'm close to cumming really fast and he eases off and rinses us both off.
We dry each other off with towels and he lets his hair down reaching his shoulders. He leads me back into the main room and we sit on the mat for the physical tantra. He pulls me close and holds me, encouraging my hands to connect with his body. He does the same, running his hands all over me and through my hair. He puts his forehead against mine and we breathe as our hands go all over each other. He then lays me down and uses heated oils to massage me. His touch is secure and relaxing and I feel the tension leave my body.
Every inch of me is massaged. He handles my body with confidence, pulling me and moving me around knowing that I'm receptive to anything he'll do. When he moves to different sections of the body, he pulls me up and embraces me, getting himself as oily as I am. I kiss him and he holds my head, pulling me closer still. He then lays me down for more massaging.
One of these times he pulls me close, I push my weight forward so he is laying back. I massage him a little bit which he is receptive to. I stroke him and lick the precum away. He then pulls me up, kisses me deeply, and asks me if I'm ready to connect our root chakras. His cock is brushed up against my ass and I think I actually whimpered a "yes."
I feel him enter me, slowly filling me up. I try and stifle a moan, not wanting to make too much noise in case his neighbours hear. He notices this and he holds my head tight, looking me deep in the eyes and says he holds me so I can be free. I feel a little awkward doing so but he begins to slowly and gently thrust inside me. I become less inhibited with each thrust and he becomes more vocal, showing me how to let go and moan. He whispers in my ear, telling me to give myself to him. He tells me that he is mine, our energy is united.
There comes a point where I completely let go and feel myself fill with ecstasy. I'm moaning loudly, completely free of any awkwardness or desire to hold myself back. He doesn't let me touch my cock and he doesn't touch it either and our gaze is locked as I shoot my load hands free. The orgasm is one of the best things I've ever experienced and it lasts... and it lasts... and it lasts. He keeps fucking me and I stay in this intense orgasmic state. He moves my body around, changing positions many times, and the feeling stays. It almost feels like its too much and my eyes start watering but I try and let go more.
I feel a sense of release as I cry with him kissing me. There's such a tenderness to the sex and he whispers to me if I want to take his energy home with him. I say yes and he begins thrusting inside me even more intently. I feel myself close to climax again and don't stop kissing him as he begins shooting deep inside me. I cum all over him at the same time.
We continue kissing as he lays back on the mat. He holds me close and soon we stop kissing and just lay there, him still inside me. I have never felt more calmer, content or at peace. I think I was like putty in his hands and felt that if, in that moment, I would have given him anything he wanted if he asked for it. Of course he didn't and just held me comfortingly, continuing to glide his hands across my body. He tells me to enjoy this for as long as I want.
I'm not sure how long we lay there but I eventually get up and slide off his cock. He takes me back to the shower and we wash the oil off each other. We kiss more and I want to get on my knees to get him to cum again like I did. We dry each other off again and he says I can wear my clothes again if I wanted to. I choose to stay naked as he does and we go into his kitchen to eat quite a light meal that he prepared earlier. We don't talk too much and simply enjoy each other's company and a lovely euphoric state.
I then feel it is time for me to leave and get dressed. I see the time and realise I've been there for almost three and a half hours! He thanks me for sharing my soul with his. We share a final passionate kiss at the door and I leave.
It was truly one of the most incredible experiences of my life. I've never felt that disinhibited, that open, that amount of pleasure and satisfaction. I wouldn't say I'm a reserved person by any means, but as I left I felt like I had been opened up and every unwanted, negative feeling was emptied out of me. I felt giddy, almost elated and unburdened. I would actually describe it as a life changing experience and made me think about trying to do similar massages in my work. I ultimately decided not to do this, but I have adopted some elements to satisfy my client's various needs.