Take care. I have done crazy things, too, and after 8 years of it, am finally starting to regret it.

Well its tougher now. I have done stuff now, that is unlike me, that I have never done before. I am becoming the person that I do not want to be, but I keep doing it.

Just checking up on you. Hope you're doing ok.

Thank you for your comment. I find myself at home, and then when I cant bear it, I just drive around the city. Not really going anywhere, but just driving and then I drive back home again, and then go back and drive. Today is the second day, and I don't knwo if I want to admit it or not, but everytime I come home, and I look in the bedroom as if he is going to be there.