8060

Remember when Maxwell's debut CD hit and Sumthin' Sumthin' and Ascension were cuts that you just HAD TO HAVE in your collection? Now, I love my music. I don't do bootlegs CDs. I want the case and the label and everything that was in it. I have some that's a decade old and still look brand new...that's how much I love my shit. I went against my initial instinct and let one my cousins borrow it. When I got it back, the case was broken. I'm pissed. I open it up, it's just spinning on the inside instead of being suspended on the spool like it's supposed to be. I pick up the CD and it's been clawed like the Ghost and the Darkness just raped it.

Yeah, that is the worst thing. Quite similar to what happened to me with that kid. I have had lots of things end up missing because those David Copperfield type hoodies. I have had to rig up some wild stuff to keep my stuff in check. Hehehe.

I say, "What the fuck is this? Here. Take YOUR CD, put it back in YOUR broken case. Get in your car, drive out to the music store and bring MY SHIT BACK." He was gone long enough to make the block, pulled in my driveway, blew his horn and handed me a twenty dollar bill through his window and said, "I ain't goin' to the store." I snatched bill quickly and said, "Now, back the hell up out my driveway." I hate going there but some people just make you. Today, I leave by the rule that if I can't afford to lose it, then I don't lend it.

Amen to that. Preach.


The path of the invisible one isn't for everybody. It takes a strong person to be invisible in the midst of all of this chaos. I love being the one that can say, "No, I wasn't there or I haven't heard...I didn't know. I don't do that. I don't go there. No, I don't. I'm not. I can't." You are so right about the fun. You have nothing to consider but yourself. It's a given that whatever you do is going to be fun...all of your OWN fun. I laughed when you said that you hadn't been parachuting. I don't think that's on my todo list either, lol.

YEah, parachuting. Hehehe. I was just writing that as an example. Some peeps like mountain climbing. I would rather go to an amusement park any moment. Hehehe.

I think some actually believe that you have to do what other people tell you to do. Like how I attend family reunions because I don't get along with a lot of my family. Me either. I am the youngest and the underdog. <About reunions. I have only been to one reunion. And I was a kid. It was fun. But my sister belongs to a rival sorority to my aunt's. My aunt and my sister are old red hats. You would've thought my sister would've chilled out on that stuff. At the time, my aunt was sick. (Background story... My sister pissed my aunt a couple of Christmases ago with the sorority shit, that my aunt always makes a excused promise to get the family reunion info to her...for all I know--she could've already have had the damn thing. Hehehe.> My grandparents are dead and gone. I liked them. I can't stand their kids. So, I don't go to the reunions. One of my favorite cousins tells me that I gotta go. I cracked up so hard on him. The last one I went to with my grandmother was in the EARLY nineties and it's 'bout to be 2010 in a second, LOL. Don't expect me to do some shit 'cause I'm going to surprise your ass and flip the script quicklike. It's my life.

My other sister is pissed off. I have a sister I help cook with her big holiday dinners...well she is ticked off with me. And is NOT speaking to me. And she forwards me emails from emails sent from other people...without EVEN typing anything. No what is up or anything. I get more conversation on here than I do with my fam. Sad. I am not cooking anything special anymore. She can cook it all as far as I am concerned.

Oh, and my third sister...she is a born again Christian. And she doesn't like the fact that I am gay. I am like "Bitch, you ain't gotta love it." And she starts quoting scriptures...and I start telling her "Judge not lest ye be judged." Then, I start bringing up her personal stuff and that shuts her the fuck up.

My older brother doesn't say a thing. He has his own cross to bear.


I'm going to sleep because I could tell you one story after the next.

"What UP^?

I had that same problem with my gallery when I started it. It kind of bugged me because I was good at complimenting folks on their pictures. I just let it go though. I figured that they were too horned up to type.

Being invisible has it's advantages though. Ralph Ellison's "Invisible Man" made me realize that years ago when it became one of my favorite books. The other is "Their Eyes Were Watching God" by Zora Neale Hurston. Those two books enthrall me every time I read them.

I let an asshole borrow my Invisible Man book...trying to expand his mind. I'm so pissed at myself because I haven't seen my book in MONTHS....

Sometimes I could just strangle "us" for how we do shit."--8060

When I was in middle school, I let a guy borrow one of my Dungeons and Dragons modules. It took me a whole fuggin' week to get it back and that was with some assistance with the principal. And how about when I got my module back. It looked like it went through hell. It looked like some fuck's used ratty porno pulp paperback. I was sooooo upset. I gave it to him brand-new and it looked like his grandmother when I got it back. I never let anyone borrow my stuff. If I have to let them borrow it, then, it will be something that I can stand to lose...or I have an extra copy of it.

I had to sell a lot of greeting cards door-to-door in order to get that Dungeons and Dragons set with that particular module, too.

Being invisible does have its advantages. I can dress how I want. I can read what I want. If you are in the hood...people try and square you in on how to be black. I am like fuck all that crazy shit. My mom and sister used to be on my case about how I should be doing this to be black. I read. I vote. I don't get into any trouble.

Road to invisibility you sometimes travel alone because sometimes peeps don't respect the path you take. And you have to prepare you roll along solitaire. But then when you drop off scope...then, it is fun. It is actually fun. One, you can do what you want. Two, you respect others by allowing them their pathways to happy. Three, you have to be a conscientious thinker. Four, create some things of beauty...and make it legal. Five, do some wild things in your lifetime...like if you want to go white water river rafting. Do so. I have. It was fun. If you want to do archery, do so. I have. It is fun. I haven't done any parachute sky diving. Not interested. I have been on a lot of rollercoasters though. Those are fun.

I see a lot of black folks and gay folks doing some really routine things. The worst thing one can do is live someone else's idea of a life. You live the life you were meant to live. You deserve it. And it is YOUR life...not your mom's. Not your sister's. Not your brother's. At the end of the day, it is your life.

"I just wanted to stop in and say hello. You kind of just popped up out of nowhere on my screen so I took that as a sign. I hope you're doing WELL, I-man!

You...are one of the good guys."--8060

Thanks for the visitor message, 8060. I really appreciated it. I am doing fine.

I got really frustrated when I had pics in my gallery that many peeps wouldn't comment on them. I had a lot of views but very few or little comments on them. THAT was weird. VERY weird. So, I decided that I would take all the photos I had in my gallery down...and just go "invisible" mode for a while.

And I am far from vain, I just wanted peeps to actually see who I was. It was a big ordeal to overcome but I did it. But I think that many peeps could've said or wrote something. But they didn't. It wasn't like I was dogging people out on their pics as well. I was always supportive of peeps' pics. But hey.

People just are out for themselves. So, I just don't comment on anyone's pics anymore. And keep to myself.

Aaawwww 8060! I just saw what you wrote!!!

Thank you my lovely!

And it'd be great to dance with you... danced alone for far too long!

Let me put my lil' blindfold on.
Now you just whatever you want squeezed inside Rubi's lil' fingers, 8060.

Man, I think you're due for another squeeze.
imo ...

Do I have to dance a lone?

8x6? Is that a piece of wood?

Sounds good. Just be careful where you point that thing.

:hug"