It's kinda weird, my dad hates gay people and all my close friends are gay. Therefore my parents assume that I am also gay because I
a) slept with a gay man
b) go to gay social events
c) only hang out with gay people

It kinda sucks because no matter what I say or do, I'm always getting the second degree about how I'll never find anyone if I only hang out with gay people. How am I supposed to figure myself out, if I'm not allowed to hang with the people I really care...

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I keep going over this in my head... am I ready to take the next step with him. 10 years of friendship on the line.. do I do it? do I pass? We were a lack of a condom away from fucking last night. But somehow I still think that this is so wrong. I want to.. I want a new level with him, but I can't imagine doing it. Even when I was sitting beside him without pants on.. I couldn't picture actually doing it. I was shaking in fear.

How do I externalize this and just allow it to happen?

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I want to wipe my hard drive... I don't think I've ever thought about this before. I want to write down the programs I like and back up the ones I need to.. like Dragon Naturally Speaking... and then wipe it clean.

How do I do this? I have the original disk.. but can I use system restore to a point when my computer was not full of crap I don't use?

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So out of the hundreds of locked logs I have.. the one where I get my gay friend to dish was straight sex was about I cannot unlock.. I can't remember the password to save my life. Someone give me an idea for a program to crack it open.

I've tried to reformat the password but it tells me I can't because it has been locked by a different messenger.

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I rarely think negatively of anyone I take the time to talk to.. but now I'm grasping at what the fuck happened because "beautiful boy" is now ignoring me... and wont say why, or read my messages either..

what the fuck!!!

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