I don't get it! But it's frustrating. I already have two older, married men that I'm interested in, and I can now add a third to the list - my Criminal Justice teacher. *sigh* I don't understand. He's not even that cute! I'm constantly daydreaming about him though. He's in his early 50's (that's an educated guess), he's an ex cop, he's funny and intelligent, and I dunno... I just can't stop thinking about having hot, sweaty, passionate sex with him! Gah! I haven't had sex in almost a year....

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I went ahead and went to the ER last night. I was still having chest pains and palpitations, and they weren't going away, so I figured I should go just to make sure I'm okay. I had also woken up this morning with sharp pains in my left wrist that I thought might be carpal tunnel, so I figured I had better get that checked too. After a chest x-ray, an EKG, and some blood work, they've decided that I'm not dying. The doctor basically said that I checked out okay, and that whatever was causing...

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for heart problems earlier... and I ended up not going. Here's why.

For the past several days, I've had weird heart things happening. I guess they could be best described as palpitations? Sometimes my heart skips a beat... other times, I can actually feel my heart pumping in my chest and it feels weird. Sometimes I get a tightness in my chest that doesn't want to go away. On top of that, I've had a little bit of nausea here and there, and excessive panic attacks. I've been debating...

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Well, his situation is starting to get scarier. They did a catscan on him yesterday only to find out that he's not really getting any better. One of his abscesses showed no improvement, the other only showed mild improvement. (I guess he only has two?) And they also think that his body is metabolizing the antibiotics. I guess they are going to do some more research and talk to some more experts to see what should be done next, but I'm starting to get scared. Really fucking scared. I lost...

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*sigh* I guess I'm going to try to be strong and talk about the issues surrounding my brother. It's gotten to the point where I almost hate him. But he's my brother, so I love him, of course. I don't even know where to start, really. I guess I'll try to start at the beginning.

My brother and I are nine years apart. Our lives were incredibly different, even though they involved the same people. Because of our age difference, things affected us very differently. When our parents...

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