So, the bf is feeling much better. How do I know? He's up at 5:30am down in the kitchen surfing profiles over at Silverdaddies.com. His latest hobby. I know I come here and to MySpace, but neither site has an expressed purpose to meet people. Silverdaddies is for young to meet older guys. What purpose does a partnered guy have being on a site like that? Just to look at profiles? I don't think so. At some point in time, I think people began to think I was a head of cabbage.

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Just what is a gut feeling? I mean, I know what it is technically, but where does it come from? How does it "know" things?

A friend told me when in doubt, trust my gut. I'm a gamer and accept certain...abnormalities about life. The phenonmenon of having a way to tell how something is without actually knowing is possible to me, but I don't know how much I'd normally pay attention to it. Anyway, my gut. There are a couple situations both personal and professional that...

So, it's 2008. I didn't do anything to ring in the new year. I stayed home. Again. The last time I went out for new year was 2004 into 2005. I got high that night too. First time. Last time.

Bf is sick, so I'm around the house taking care of him. He's easier to deal with when he's sick and he's more appreciative of things.

Still thinking about my friend. His wife just up and left him because she felt she was wasting her life. She's a mother. She left him with...

So, for a change...I have nothing bad to report with the bf. That's good to have some peace around the house for a bit. Ok, yeah...he did have an argument with the 19 yo border, but that didn't involve me, so that doesn't count.

I had my friend, Phil over yesterday. He brought his nephew, Bogga, with him to hang out. I haven't seen this guy in nearly 10 years. And the only thing he remembered about me is that I came all the way from VA to help his grandmother move. He's a thug,...

That Pink Floyd song always reminds me of the time that has past and how much of it I let slip away from me. I remember when I first heard the song. I was determined that I'd not let my life go that way.

Ten years have got behind you, noone told you when to run, you missed the starting gun.

So much love lost. So many jobs gone. So much time wasted. I have to fight to make sure I don't waste anymore time. I have, at this point, gotten where I'm more concerned about...