Females...what a pain.

First try at a blog. Its all out of order and scatterbrained how I typed it out. Just thinking of shit as it comes to my head.

So the girl I was talking to stopped communicating with me all together. I don't know what I did. I didn't do anything wrong. except maybe one thing. She had called me, and was telling me about all this stuff that was going on with her. Her current problems and such. And my room mate came knocking on my door, all super urgent and shit like something was seriously important. So I told her I would call her back in one minute. She was like "whyyy???!" I said I don't know I'll call you back. I hung up on her, and my friend had some ridiculously fucking stupid and worthless thing to tell me. So I called her right back. She didnt answer. Called again, then one more time later that night. She never answer. After that she didnt call me or text me for 3 days. I called her once a day, and sent her one text one day saying hi. Why the hell would someone just simply start ignoring you? Why would she just like, instantly hate me for such a small thing. I don't know if thats the reason but holy shit if it is, its really fucked up, but I will never know. And its stupid, she ignored me, then she got drunk at a club and lost her keys to her car and called me to pick her up. So being nice I picked her up, thinking, maybe she really has been busy for the past 3 days. Bull crap. I wish I never picked her ass up, I should have left her stranded. She said "call me" after that, I called her, then she said she was busy and would call me back, and didn't call me for the next few days. (I figure 3 days of not calling or nothing means "hey I'm not interested in you so fuck off) I sent her a text saying I'm done waiting on her and that she should stop leading people around because its fucked up. I deleted all her text msg and her phone number and any remnants of it (incoming missed and outgoing calls). She hasn't said anything back so I was right, she lost interest in me.
I wish I could know why, what I did. How am I supposed to learn from this shitty experience if I have no idea what went wrong? She seemed so interested in me, and seemed like she liked me, but then she just said "fuck off I aint callin ur ass anymore" outa nowhere.

I feel like shit. I know its this girl I barely knew and only got to see briefly a couple times. We talked on the phone for a total time of maybe 5 hours over like, 3 weeks. I had over 200 text messages from her. So we did talk and things seemed fine. I know I shouldn't even care, but I feel depressed as if we were dating or something. I was just really looking forward to spending some time with this chick and it never got to happen. She always said she was busy, she got in a car accident, her kid was sick, all this stuff. So I was just waiting for her. She said she liked me alot, and she said she loved the fact that I was so sweet. And I thought maybe something would happen, but nope.

Its pretty sad that I'm like depressed over this. If I was some cool hot guy I would be like "whatever" and go find a new girl. But unfortunatly my pickings are slim. I have to get what I can, and if it fails, its another year before I find somebody else. I don't think some people on this site understand what I mean. Alot guys on here had nice lives growing up, they wouldnt understand. Just give me advice "be confident blah blah blah" its not that fuckin easy. I do my best to overcome my shitty past. Lol that could be a whole 'nother blog, my life story lol.

I thought typing up this blog would make me feel better, but I think it just made it worse. I heard that people write down thier feelings or whatever, and thats what a blog is pretty much right? Meh, it hasnt helped.