I am a complete N-E-W-B at both of these, for various reasons (for one of them, see previous blog entry). I just havn't wanted to involve them in my life when I'm going through heavy stuff.

I have no idea how to flirt with girls, and have never even asked a girl out ever, which is another reason I've never had a girlfriend. I am usually COMPLETELY oblivious that any flirting is going on at all, and if I get suspicious, I try look for some innocent reason for her behaviour or a joke....

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So I saw Ezra_Pound's thread on suicide, and wanted to put some scattered thoughts down on depression.

A little bit of my history:
I have been depressed for a very long time now. I think its close to about 7 years. There were a few months in between, during the last semester of high school when I wasn't (really pretty girl and I were getting friendly...unfortunately nothing more....but that's for a different sob story), but then it hit again and harder. I was only diagnozed...

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