I Know I Need To Talk To My Shrink About This
Posted 03-16-2008 at 11:59 PM by jason_els
Just did the most obvious math ever. 1+1=2.
The question about How did porn come into your life? just sparked the most obvious association I've never made before. I know I was molested as a child but I don't know who did it. I remember hands, acts, body parts, but no faces. Now I may have the scariest link of all and the implications are very, very, frightening to me. I can't believe I never thought of the porn I found as a possible link to who did those things to me. I'm so fucking dense sometimes.
The question about How did porn come into your life? just sparked the most obvious association I've never made before. I know I was molested as a child but I don't know who did it. I remember hands, acts, body parts, but no faces. Now I may have the scariest link of all and the implications are very, very, frightening to me. I can't believe I never thought of the porn I found as a possible link to who did those things to me. I'm so fucking dense sometimes.
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 |  Why would you make that connection?  It'a a repressed memory for a reason. I hope this realization isn't causing you too much pain and anguish. I know these things can take years to work through in therapy. |
Posted 03-17-2008 at 04:05 AM by njqt466  |
| |  Jason -- you're not dense at all. Some people go their whole lives without making a connection like that. You figured it out 'cause you're ready for it now. Clear it and thrive on the other side! |
| Posted 03-17-2008 at 07:02 AM by krispdx |
| |  Uh oh!! Yikes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| Posted 03-17-2008 at 11:07 AM by Not_Punny |
| |  Jason, I believe that in the long term it would do you a great deal of good to try and find some resolution to this issue. (I recall a previous blog?) Do what you must, but don't back down. The mind has many rabbit holes. You're strong. |
| Posted 03-17-2008 at 01:29 PM by No_Strings |
| |  Jason, Our emotional defense mechanisms are extremely irrational, but often highly effective in helping us get by under what would normally be a lot of pain and anguish. Don't be surprised if you discover all kinds of irrational connections or disconnections regarding this. |
| Posted 03-17-2008 at 09:44 PM by JustAsking |
| |  Best Wishes and hugs for you when trying to resolve and make sense of the "senseless" my friend. cigarbabe  |
| Posted 03-18-2008 at 12:59 PM by cigarbabe |
| |  Good luck to you. I was molested as a kid as well, it took years for me to forgive and move on. Stay strong. |
| Posted 03-18-2008 at 08:11 PM by alex8.5 |
| | it is not at all fucking dense to avoid making such a connection ... in fact it is often entirely reasonable and absolutely necessary to block out certain things in order to protect ourselves ... sometimes things can be too much to handle at a certain time and so in order to protect ourselves we have to pull a veil over them until we become ready ... our subconscious will only allow us to see as much as we are ready to deal with ...the subconscious can devise all manner of cunning and seemingly irrational but entirely sensible ways of blocking the realisation of things which would otherwise be much too painfully blatantly obvious ... wish you all the best of luck in sorting through the morass ... methinks the subconscious intuition ought perhaps to be trusted as a guide to timing and discernment in such matters ... |
| Posted 03-24-2008 at 02:06 AM by str82fcuk |
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