When we restarted after lunch, naked once again save for our socks, Michael explained how this next exercise would focus on the massage techniques he was going to demonstrate for us. The techniques were a combination of ideas from places as disparate as China, India, the whorehouses of Amsterdam, and Jackin’ World. This would be straight genital massage and we were to focus on nothing more. Forget trying to be impartial, forget focusing on muscle groups, we’d get to those later. This was for the...

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I’ve started and then junked at least three different essays about my experience with Body Electric. Much of my hesitation stems from the fact that each time I decide to write I go back to what I wrote and find it doesn’t precisely capture what I want.

Here it is anyway…

I don’t like hippy-dippy...

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Just did the most obvious math ever. 1+1=2.

The question about How did porn come into your life? just sparked the most obvious association I've never made before. I know I was molested as a child but I don't know who did it. I remember hands, acts, body parts, but no faces. Now I may have the scariest link of all and the implications are very, very, frightening to me. I can't believe I never thought of the porn I found as a possible link to who did those things to me. I'm so fucking...

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‘There has to be more than this. There just must be. If I’m going to be open and self-accepting, then I have to push ahead, take risks, like Earl said.’ My need for change had become so immediate, so intense, that I didn’t quite know what to do with it. Between a few hook-ups and the bathhouse, I was left wondering what to do next?

About a billion years ago I had seen HBO’s Real Sex and remembered they did a segment on some men’s group that focused on positive touch in a male environment....

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My last foray into the world of the bathhouse had gone well but not as well as I had wanted. Leaving with a full load was just not why I had gone there.

So I decided to try it again two weeks later.

This time I didn't pop any Cialis and instead just let things take their course. This time the baths had many more guys and I was quite pleased with the pickings. Now that I was an old pro I figured something had to go right. I bandied about for two hours, cruising around the...

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