I'm going through something more or less similar myself. It's not easy to just "forget someone." The advice given here by everyone is about the best I could give as well... hell, I should consider taking it.

I wish you the best.

Be strong Mack!
You know you have tons of friends here if you need to vent or ask for advice. We may not be able to send a hug through the computer, but please believe kind, supportive words go a long way.

Keep your head up and props to you for making a change!

Wow, this sounds eerily similar to my current situation...I'm in the middle of a year off school, but stuck at home with parents who can't accept the direction I'd like to take my life and the lifestyle I'd like to lead. Ideally I just want to be a musician, but an educated one; get my vaunted Ivy League business degree and go into that field hoping to find an outlet there while contenting myself to be "the man" if necessary. My dad deludes himself into thinking I'm getting the business degree and I'll learn to shun the music. He's complimented me on it once in 6 years, and now has nothing but criticism for my life, how I lead it, and my goals with it. If he catches me playing guitar he gets into a rage and starts heatedly lecturing me about how I'm throwing my life away when I'm doing nothing more than doing what I do to relax for ten minutes.

This is nothing compared to what I read here, as my father is simply concerned for me and simply takes his worry and cocern to twisted levels, and the concern is at least there, but if you ever want to vent, I'm here to escape, and it sounds like you are too.

Not,
Of all the relationships in a family, one of the most important ones is the one between the father and a daughter. Even having an emotionally distant father can be really devastating on the well being of a daughter.

I can't even imagine how much pain would come from an emotionally or physically abusive relationship between father and daughter.

So all I can say, sweetheart, is that no one deserves that kind of pain. Please know that regardless of the actions or opinions of your father, that you are a beautiful, intelligent, and articulate human being. And it seems that people here come to love and respect you very quickly after they run into you here. That has to count for something.

I personally find you to be a very interesting person. You have a way of creating a real 'presence' around you even in this simple forum medium. I know that in real life you must be a force to reckon with and you are surely a fascinating person.

Anyway, I for one would be very interested to hear how it works out for you out on your own. Keep blogging and we will keep reading.

Just remember that your happiness is in your hands...and only your hands. No one else has the power to give you happiness. You find it in yourself.

I wish you luck and success. I also hope and pray that you will find forgiveness for those who have done these things to you. I know of pain and of feeling deserted. I also know that pain, feeling of helplessness and hopelessness, anger and bitterness will lead to poor health on your part. I've been there. Not the same circumstances as yours but I had the need to forgive being done wrong and it is very uplifting when you do it. I wish you the best of everything.

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This can't all be a coincidence! :)

Shit!! I hate it when that happens!!!

Yes, he DID take a piece of your soul with him. You can regrow that piece -- and hopefully be even better and stronger -- but it takes time.

My only advice is to spend as much time as possible with other human beings. Unfortunately, internet buddies don't quite "do it". Easier said than done when you have a small child and a schedule.

Also, exercise, nutrition AND.... (this is corny but it works for me) dancing: Dance as much and as often as you can. Dance with your son. Dance when doing the dishes. Dance when all you feel like doing is sitting down and sobbing. Take a dance class. Go out dancing with friends (male or female).

OK, yes, you're going to think I'm nuts, but it REALLY REALLY works.

Maybe because MOTION helps us control EMOTION.

Nah, I watched my brother go deeper and deeper down the tubes of his life, living with my father, crippled by his alcoholism and his inability to live with himself and needing our Father's mentorship and love that never came forth. He drank and drove and was arrested jailed, injured, crippled, and it all came out in asides to him and to the other siblings was "he's a jerk." None of us got much better than that either. But family loyalty is tough.

When my brother died needlessly two years ago in a stupid accident, my father felt no remorse, and the funeral was something to tolerate.

My ethnicity?

you could try Epic Lust as a starting point. lots of big penis art. i think there is some homoerotic art there as well. if not youll find links and lots of artists.

I have a questions for u guys.... have ne one have an seen these for erotic art of KING TUT.... I cant find out the artist or find the picture... If u have ne insight get at me...

I love erotic art, and I've been trying to get into erotic photography myself, not as a subject, but as a photographer myself.

Here's a sample of my work, funny enough, I'm also the subject in this one (sorry it's avatar size).

http://www.cojaha.com/iamtyler_fallen_angel.gif

Spread your wings. But do not fly. Do not flee. Instead, soar.

I know you'll do all that you set out to do, and more.

i am aapul i do erotic art mostly fantasy will email you some of my work for your oppinion

That corsette looks AWESOME! I know not to tell someone (especially with E and especially when their educated on it) just not to do the drug. Because it is unbelievably amazing. But I think you should evaluate WHEN you will stop using it. Saying your done then doing it again is the bad sign i see here.

Does this have something to do with your ethnicity? The way your parents behave?
You look greek to me but I'm just curious.
C.B.

I know the arena. I'm surprised that many more people among those I know, waited much much longer to move out and straighten their mind and soul.

This forum will be good for you to stay in touch and ask the right questions.