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Originally Posted by swimfan2473 I just wanted to know how do u know if you are gay or straight. i know it might sound stupid but i need help because ive always been unsure of how i feel about guys and girls. so how did some of you guys know you were gay or bi |
I literally grew up having sex with guys, and I really really liked everything about it.
By the age of 15 it was the only thing I knew,- my primary fantasies, and primary sexual outlet.
But around that age I realized that I never had kissed a guy or even felt the urge to kiss a guy. Never had a romantic impulse for a guy...
But that I DID crane my neck to gawk at beautiful girls... that I loved the way they smelled and sounded and moved and reacted...
I started dating girls and the first time I kissed a girl I realized that, no matter how pleasurable sex with a guy was... it was not anything like what I felt for women in terms of intimacy, attachment and raw yearning.
That is when it began to occur to me that I was not homosexual... even though I had been conditioned to respond sexually to homosexual stimulus.
Although I continued having sex with guys, here and there, as opportunity arose, for many years... From that day onward I was looking for the woman I wanted to share my life with.
Sex with the occasional guy just became something that was fun, when I was between girlfriends.
And when I found the woman who was right for me, I left that activity behind without any regrets.
I feel grateful that I discovered and explored that aspect of my sexuality in my youth... and having done it... I do not suffer the intrigue and curiosity of those who've always had the fantasies... but never had the opportunities.