What is my Gay/Straight % ratio?

I am a 36 year old married man (to a beautiful woman) with 2 children. I am considered to be very goodlooking to both sexes. Tell me what my gay to straight ratio is according to the following:
1. Never had any type of physical sexual contact with a male (no kissing, fondling, sucking or fucking.) 2. I have only thought of men while jacking off.
3. Have been married for 12 years and only had sex with my wife under 20 times. I tried to in the begining but she kinda lost interest in sex with me after (while being 8 months pregnant) found my stash of 40 gay porno mags. We last had sex 3 years ago when my 2 year old was concieved.
3. I was raised without a father, so I was never exposed to typically straight male interests. Therefore, I love old movies, fashion, art, and everthing else my mother was into.
4. Due to the above, I am kinda feminine in my way of behaving. Not flaming, but act and kinda talk like my mother.
5. I am only atracted to older hairy masculine men. I guess a father type of replacement.
6. After not seeing my father for 22 years (last saw him when I was 4), I whent to visit him in TX and one night after getting really drunk together, he hit on me. ( This to be discussed in more detal later) Anyway, I did not allow it to happen and have not seen him in 6 years. However, (this maybe kinda sick) I have had sexual fantasies involving him ever since.
7. I am addicted to gay porn and spend 3-4 hours per day searching gay porn on the net.

I guess time will tell for you on this. I'm amazed, that you would only have sex 20 or so times in a marriage that has persisted for this length of time.

You needs some kind of talk and reflection for some people (here, I guess) and some professional help to either make you understand what has happened, what you expect, what you need, what you want and what your wife and kid should expect and need and want.

Yes, you sound gay, and you sound like you tried to do "what was expected of you", but not what you wanted.

Write back.

Did your wife know, going into the marriage, that you had homosexual leanings?

I agree with sargon - putting a number on it is the least of your worries and certainly what any of us might think about your sexuality is pretty meaningless.

I hope you find someone you can talk to - I hope you find some help reading here.

i agree...you should def see a therapist. its really great to be who you are...but there are lot of people that could be hurt in this situation bc of it. thats why i hate societys view on gay people....then it forces people to stay in the closet and later it all comes out worse. good luck man...keep us posted.

spanky1998 I'll leave the labeling of your self as straight, gay or bisexual up to you.

Although you are not having sex with your wife, the whole of your sexual activities, including erotic dreams and waking sexual fantasies and daydreams, is called your sex life. There are parts of your sex life which are troubling to you and your wife which need to be addressed.
Your father is physically attractive to you, but keep your fantasies about him to yourself do not act on them.
Your wife is aware that gay porn interests you. Can she accept this as part of your sex life or not? Will you tell her of your addiction? You should seek help for your porn addiction and marriage counselling too.

Pornography addiction - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

That is the great thing about being human, you can have a fluid sexuality and have sex with whatever gender you please. :) Peace.

it took a lot of courage to post this, i know it must have.
am curious as to what your tipping point was / is to finally post,
as this was your first post, and an important one for you.

it will be ok. it will take time. you need to be strong to get through this.

you can private message me if you want.

good luck and best wishes,

offroad

Okay.... Well, I guess I sound kinda fucked up? Check this out: * I have never had a. substance abuse problem
* I have never been arrested
* I am an attorney from a top. 10 law school * I have 2 BA's 1 MA and a JD * I speak 4 languages fluently * I have lived in 4 countries * I was a personal trainer in the early 90's and modled for Claude Montana in Vouge Hommes in 1988 and yes I have a dick larger than 7 inches. However, I am or was, still am, way too vain. I am terrified of getting old and loosing my looks. Therefore, in the last 3 years I have had 2 hair transplants, liposuction of thighs, back, sides, neck. Botox, restalayne, veneers and expensive creams. Total so far 47K.. I am a shopaholic, did steroids in the early 90's (hence the hair lossa) codepedant, have ADD, a closet smoker. Shit! I have just come out naked too you all. Oh, I hate posers, wana be's and liars. You guys, I am not a sad closet case. I have just not met any man since 1994 who was worth spilling my jizz on. He was the one real pasionate love of my life. We never had sex, but it was the most passionate love affair. Now he was fucked up.! But what a body and never have I met a more masculine man in my life. He told me that he could not live with out me. But his father forced him to stop talking to me. I have never been so devestated. He's married and living in Indiana. I should call him. Enough... I really do sound crazy now. I don't give a shit. I am who I am. Oh, don't feel bad about my wife. Believe me I am the perfect man for her. Any other man would have dvorced her years ago. She is hot. A wet dream to any straight man. 5 ft 4 97 lbs, 34DD (implants) makes more than me, looks like a movie star and dresses like one (thanks to me) but completely not into sex. I would fuck her if she was into it. Anyway, I just want to meet a cool dude who is smart and not a freak! Peace and happyness to all....

I am 100% straight/ 100% gay. Figure that one out peeps.

Youre a screwed up tranny?

I don't believe in labels or percentages. Humans are constantly changing beings. If they aren't, they've stagnated and stopped living.

Agreed. But Im 100% certain I could never lick a pussy. If that makes me stagnant then so be it.