OK, I'm seeing a pattern here. It would appear you have read nothing that any of your "friends" here has posted. Did it dawn on you that if you do this kind of pitiful whining to your friends without listening to them or getting help (which I am now convinced you really need), that you might drive them away just as you are doing people on here that are in your corner?

Arliss is right. This is right out of a Jerry Springer script.

Cut the crap. You are a grown man, FIX YOUR SITUATION! You can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. Ditch the drama. That is all the last few posts have been. And lastly...

GET THERAPY!!! Do you not see you have slid into a serious depression? You think perpetuating this "noble" cycle of yours is going to help? NOT A DAMN BIT!!

It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure this out. You have serious issues of your own. Go it alone and get the help for you and quit trying to save others. Save yourself first.