Gay feelings as a kid

Some of my earliest feelings with regards to sexuality came at about 6-7 years old. One day back then, I was watching TV, and I can remember feeling strangely attracted to the red haired singer Mick Hucknall (of Simply Red fame). After seeing one of his music videos, I even remember arguing with my older sister, saying "that's a woman" and she'd say "no, that's a man" - almost like I knew what I was feeling wasn't the norm and felt embarrassed by it.

A couple of years later, when I joined a sports team at elementary school, I remember there being a red haired boy on the team and thinking "that kid is pretty damn cute." I felt that way about him (without saying or doing anything about it) until age 10 or so.

Since then, nothing, I grew up completely 100% woman-loving straight. It's still weird to me though - that I apparently had a 'thing' for redhead guys as a kid and now I'm really not into men in any form or way. It's not like I'm now in denial or anything - I'm not one of those guys who pretends to be 100% straight and then has gay flings on the side or sends men here messages saying "I want to suck your cock."

Does anyone else have similar anecdotes? I'm interested in what some of the people here felt when they were younger and whether that ties in with what they now identify as in terms of orientation.

Me too. I was visiting my aunt and we were watching tv. I remember saying "Wow, he's really beautiful" I was 8. My aunt said, "No, men are handsome women are beautiful". That was my first recollection.

I can remember having crushes on people of either gender...back as early as 2nd grade. I even tried to get certain boys to pay attention to me back then but to no avail.

I can remember being sprawled under the coffee table in the family room with my coloring book drawing stick figures. One picture I drew was of guys peeing on each other (no, I dont like watersports!). I can remember trying to get my older brother's best friend to draw a picture of a guy...he drew a stick figure, and I tried to encourage him to extend the torso line below the leg junction. He quickly caught on to what I was trying to make him draw, and laughed and quit (probably mumbling "ya little freak" under his breathe).

Around the same time, I was best friends with my older brothers girlfriend's little brother. We were the same age. He taught me what the word "dick" meant. I was around 8. That was the first non-family related dick I saw. From then on I had a series of infatuations and crushes on boys in my class and neighborhood all the way through college. Of course, they were all one sided and never reciprocated (under the best of terms), and ended some deep friendships (under the worst of terms). I wanted to like girls like all the other guys, but it just never happened. You learn pretty quickly at that age what is acceptable and what is not. The best I could do was to repress my true feelings deep inside and not let myself feel anything for anyone.

I read your posting with interest. I also started having sexual males when I was 7 or 8 years old, but it was only after fumbling around with an older cousin on his initiative. I'd already masturbated a lot from the age of about 7 by lying on my side and using the lower forearm to rub against my dick. My dad caught me and told me it was bad for me! Ha! I don;t know if I'd have leanings towards other males, though, if the older cousin hadn't started it all. I am now a married bisexual and have a lover on the side. Johnny

Sorry, the first line of my earlier post should have read "started having sexual feelings for other males". Oops.

I think most boys go thru a period of sexual plasticity.

From just prior to adolescence thru 14 or so boys seem to be particularly fascinated with sex and eager to explore.

Part of the reason catholic priests and other molestors have such success is how common these kinds of thoughts and fantasies are at that age... and therefore, how easy it is to convince a little boy to try it out.

In many cultures thru history, boys aorund this age being sexually active with older boys or men was common and in some cultures, required.
Again... I think this reflects the fact that the OPs experiences are common and normal for human males.

In my own experience, it was not that hard for an older boy to convince me to do sexual things... and I certainly came back for more...

Had someone tried that on me at an earlier or later age...It probably would have freaked me out.

And yet, I grew up to absolutely prefer women.

It is a natural stage in most boys' lives to go through a short phase of homosexuality. I heard that this was due to some kind of hormone imbalance near puberty or something like that...

For me my experience was reverse. As a young child I had feelings for girls. Around 14 I started to have feelings for guys and girls and around 21 I was only into guys.

So I guess it works both ways?

I remember finding men attractive ever since i was 5 years old period.

Same here. After I discovered jerking off I was all about Playboy, the bra section in the Sears catalog, etc. (hey, this was back in the day) but I had messed around with guys in the neighborhood by that time too. Can't remember when it happened but somewhere along the line I switched and started whacking to the men's underwear section in the Sears catalog. Now a nekkid woman is about as sexually exciting to me as a pizza. The pickins were slim back then. In my best crusty old fart voice: "you kids don't know how good you have it!"

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I remember my Dad took us to a familly picnic... I think I was 7? 8? 9? and seeing some of his coworkers- I wasn't used to seeing them in 'casual' clothes... one of my pops coworkers who I always noticed anyway (big brawny guy, built like a linebacker) was there in shorts and an open necked shirt- hair EVERYWHERE. I remember it taking my breath away (the men in my familly tend towards the smooth side so my first real time seeing a hirsuit man...

Also at the same picnic, another of pops coworkers (older lady) but... well, italian, stocky and a set of tits that still make me leak... I don't think I can remember either faces, but I loved goign to the picnics after that...(or even place that I could see them all not dressed up...) I always gravitated to the 'furry' men...

I didn't know this was a normal thing to go through and that it seems to happen to most people, having no bearing on how they turn out. I was almost under the impression that I was destined to be gay but that it was averted by some sort of divine intervention. Interesting.

I found myself getting an erection to the sight of a man's chest when I was about seven. I had no words and no comparisons. The world I knew then was abusive. Sexual and emotional and physical. The quiet view of a man's chest with no anger or repulsion only intrigued me. It looked fine and pleasant and comforting. A woman's chest was also a source of the same mysterious feeling.



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It would be many years before i sorted out things.