feeling sad

Sorry to hear that you're feeling so bad. Keep crying and get the bad feelings out of your system. I know that you'll have better times in your future.

Thank you Jovial,
You have always been a sweet guy.

Big strong arms and a knack for knowing when to squeeze - but I always give the caveat that I will almost certainly get a dirty big demanding boner. Still, takes your mind off it. xx

Heatbreak is the hardest thing in the world to deal with, I think harder than dealing with a death. I deal with the heartbreak of the only person I ever loved or trusted figuring out he was gay. To make a horrible situation worse he had sex with me thinking it would make something in me feel better. Either way he is fairly distanced from my life and it still hurts like hell.

I hope in time you can get over the pain, you deserve it. Keep strong girly.

Sweetheart,

Each of us has a different time table for healing. Have you considered counselling. I know it helped me put some things in perspective. Most of all was that when someone does something heinous to you often it isnt even about you but about them. Most people are not trying to hurt us, they just arent thinking about us , period. So, this allows them to do things that are not in OUR personal best interest at the time. I wish you the best and continued heart healing. When they say its not you its me. BELIEVE THEM! LOL!

Thank you Naughty,
It had left me wondering what was wrong with me.
I never got closure.
Never got told why.

This situation is just so mixed.
On one hand I still love him and want to be with him but on the other I hate him for what he has done.
All I know is that he fell off the face of the planet and didn't seem to think I rated even a 25 cent text message to tell me it was over.
I have blamed myself for not being attractive enough, not good enough at sex and spent hours going over our relationship to work out what I had done wrong.
I don't like the rut I am in and I seem to be powerless to find away out.

explore the sadness. enjoy it for what it is. sadness gets jealous when all you focus on is happy.

that is SO true!

reminds me of this song by Kenny Wayne Shepherd called "Let Go."

"Let Go"

In a room filled with dried tears of sorrow
You come in and lay down by my side
When you feel the same way tomorrow
'Cause you smile just as easy as you cry

Was it wrong to be good to you
Was it wrong to be your man
'Cause I ain't getting through to you
And i've done all I can to make you understand

[Chorus:]
And my heart just keeps on bleeding
From the hole that drains my soul
And if I can't kill the feeling now
How do I, oh I, let go?

Time only heals when it wants to
I guess that's why I just can't get you off of my mind

Yeah, when the walls come down between us
Will you be on the other side?
If you say you didn't need it
I will let you right back in for the rest of my life

[Chorus 2:]
Only you can stop the bleeding
From the hole that drains my soul
And if you can't kill the feeling now
How do I, oh I, let go?


it's such a sucky feeling. i've been there myself. some days it hurt so bad i felt like i could die, but you don't die. it definetely wasn't easy getting over him, but i did. it took me a long ass time. i just distanced myself, changed my number so he wouldn't call me anymore, and i told him not to email me anymore b/c i needed some space. i listened to songs like the one i just shared with you (and inspirational songs), i vented to friends (til they were probably really annoyed) and i cried alot. i also would write in a journal. let it out girl! "...and this, too, shall pass." *big hug*

Thank you Guys for your love and support during this hard time.
Thanks to you lot, I came out of it alot better than I had thought I would.
And also a big thank you to those people who sent comforting PMs.

I LOVE YA HEAPS GUYS!

Dragonfly.