i have been attracted to girls for as long as i can remember, and i started experimenting with girls at the age of 6. kissing and dry humping. and then again when i was about 9, i made out with my best friend. she lived a few trailers down. i had a huge crush on her brother. she was over one day and we ended up kissing and it was starting to get really hot, but then her mom ended up calling and she had to leave. i was bummed. i also experimented with this other girl that lived nearby when she was over at my house. she wanted to do it naked but i thought i'd get pregnant!

LOL! cracks me up. when i was in 4th grade, me and my best friend were looking in her parents room for movies to watch (her mom told us to), we ended up finding a blank tape and we were like hmm...what's this? it was porn. so we both started masturbating. we also made up a sex game. lol. and her mom ended up finding our game rules, the porn tape, and all that stuff. so embarassing!

i also messed around with another girl when i was about 12. that time it had gone even further. rubbing our pussies together until we had an orgasm. when i was 16, i did pretty much everyhing you can do with another girl. around that time, i was SO confused b/c i had done everything with girls all those years. i wondered if i was a lesbian, and i was extremely depressed.
but see, i sometimes wonder if maybe i turned to girls because i was sexually abused when i was little. after it happened, i turned to girls. i had done stuff with boys before then, but i lost interest in males after that. so when i was 17, i figured out that i'm bisexual. it was still questionable, but i have always been attracted to males too, so like a month before i turned 19, i had sex with a guy for the first time and that clarified everything. i'm bisexual. i love both. i haven't came out yet, which is extremely hard for me. i know they wouldn't disown me or anything, it's just....hard.
when i was younger, i didn't see it as being gay. i just seen it for what it was. pleasuring myself with another person. but to me it was like...i didn't see gay people as gay people. when i was little i was always around this gay couple. my parents' friend and his boyfriend. i just seen it as two people who love each other. i always seen it as something normal.