life is hard, i just wish you can find the one you are meant to be with for the rest of your life and just stick with it, but it just doesn't seem to happens for me. i had been attracted to many girl who end up being my best friends for some weird reason. idk i guess i just flurt the wrong way or something because we flurt with each other a lot, but i never have the corriage to ask her out or something, and then i just end up losing her. and i guess the reason why i am such a coward to ask them out is because i been turn down before, and i just don't want to risk my friendship over it. Last semester, i was thinking of giving guys a chance because maybe thats what i am into, and i end up doing all kind of shit for this guy(nothing sexually), because we are so much a like, i basically shared my whole lifestory and shit with him, but this semester he just basically cut me out of his life, and when i look back i feel so use, all the money and shit that i spend during our time and friendship, well i keep ranbling on about nothing good luck man