A realization...

SpeedoGuy · 05-05-2007

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Originally Posted by Christofferb

I am afraid. Life scares me, I am scared of the present, and terrified of the future - the past I resent.

I can empathize. If its any comfort, you're not alone, Christoff. I struggle with similar demons.

I'm not sure why but insomnia strikes me early in the morning. I wake up before dawn and have difficulty ever going back to sleep afterwards. I fret over many things: past, present and future. Perhaps its the accumulated stress of a lifetime of a hard work ethic, worry, self-doubt, perfectionism, a cultural heritage ridden with angst, and a tendency toward alcoholism and depression that runs in my family. Whatever it is, its gradually taking a toll because its gotten worse since I entered my 40s.

ganja4me · 05-05-2007

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Originally Posted by AlteredEgo

If you can get some sleep, that might make a drastic dent in your depression. Here's my advice.

Pick a bedtime, and stick to it religiously.
an hour before bed, drink camomile tea
half an hour before bed take some melatonin
get regular excercise, but never later than six hours before bed
NO CAFFEINE EVER! (Definitely not past midday.)
Learn to meditate, or another relaxation technique.

If you must go over your insecuriteis and other upsetting things while trying to rest, focus not on how things were, but about what you can do differently, and how things can be. Whatever you practice in your mind you can eventually apply in real life.

Also look at your friends and family. Do you have a good support system? Do you want to be like the people you spend most of your time with? You will be an amalgam of the 5 people with whom you spend the most time. So, don't spend time with people who are depressed, unfulfilled, bitter, or unproductive. Find the cheerful go-getters you know, and spend more time with them.

Most importantly, don't think you have to conquer your problems alone. Sounds to me like you could benefit from some counseling and therapy.

Good luck.

I was going through a period of time in which I was barely sleeping at all. And it was I think the cause of a depressed feeling I was always having. Once I started getting more sleep I was feeling much better. I did this by getting much more exercise. I just basically had to tire myself out. I would exercise till I got that feeling I didn't want to do nothing but sit on my ass till I fell asleep. Melatonin helps too. I drank camomile tea before but I didn't like the taste of it for some reason. Also, smoking some weed an hour or so before I wanted to go to bed would help me get relaxed enough and clear my mind to go to sleep. I guess it would sorta be like meditating for me. I'm not recommending the weed because I do know of people who have had "bad experiences" with it like getting real paranoid and two people I know of have had panic attacks from it before. One person was so bad he had to go to the hospital. But if you have smoked or you're planning on trying it then that may help as well.

A realization...

Originally Posted by Christofferb I am afraid. Life scares me, I am scared of the present, and terrified of the future - the past I resent. I can empathize. If its any comfort, you're not