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Originally Posted by davidjh7 Mdm. Z---I wish I could know you in person, and call you friend. My life would be much richer for the experience! |
Thanks for talking to me last night, it meant the world. I have a habit of taking a very long time to warm up to people, and sometimes that is misunderstood as being a bitch or being stand-offish, but it's not.
For someone like me, my real personality is also my "persona". I get to hide behind being who I really am as sort of a front. I've referred to this as "lying with the truth" before, but Big Dirge nailed me on it pretty well a while back. I get to say exactly what I want to say, or would say in a real life situation, and add a

smilie, and everything's okay, because I'm Jana- resident evil. People gather around to watch the clouds gather, and the fact that there's an actual human being behind this keyboard gets lost in the drama. Oh, it's a good show, but I still go home alone.
I'm not whining, for whatever reason the same things that I encounter here I deal with in real life, so it doesn't shock me as much as it once did.
I get called a man irl all the time, despite having 38DD tits, it's absurd. I've come to grips with being a cartoon character, but it is really amazing when someone says something so purely beautiful to me and makes me feel like they really do see a person inside here- you made me cry, and I'm so glad we finally got to talk.
Years ago I found a Book of Knowledge encyclopaedia from 1909. I was flipping through one of the volumes- I would read the four rescued books cover to cover eventually, but they were written in story form as if to children in many parts. One question raised was "Why do we have eyebrows?" It went on to explain about deflecting sweat and keeping flying dust particles from getting in our eyes, but then it added a cosmetic reason. It said that when you want to draw attention to something, you underline it. The eyebrows serve to draw attention to the eyes, which are the most interesting part of the face, and where one should focus one's attention when speaking to someone. I thought that was an amazing observation.
I say this, because you are one person who I've observed giving well of yourself, and doing so consistantly. I have no doubt whatsoever that you are exactly who you appear to be, and I know that life is rarely kind to gentle people. I wanted to underline what you posted to me, not because of
what you said, which was embarrassingly flattering, but
because you said it. Who does things like that? To take it further, who does things like that, just because they feel like it, with no expectation of reward? Very few, and you are a rare treat. It is me who is lucky to know you.
edit- you have a beautiful voice, I love baritones!