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Originally Posted by hootie Aw man don't be down on yourself. There is so much out there that can kill you or make you wish you were dead. It didn't use to be that way. Just be patient. Wait until you find the right woman. OOO wait until you are married and on the honeymoon. She'll have a tough time backing out on ya then. |
Thanks with all the encouragement guys. And thanks to hearing from everyone who's in the same (or similar) boat.
I doubt I'm getting married at this point. I've never had a girlfriend, women have never desired me, I don't get along with them if they do typically and I just fuck things up by being my own damn self. It's always been easy for me to deal with guys, adult women I don't understand. I'm pretty much a social disaster, I always manage to offend people somehow... and if I just keep my mouth shut people think I'm shy or something. I know that's an endearing trait for a lot of women, but apparently none I've been around.
I've never even had my first kiss. Not even a hug really.
Stories of these guys losing it so early 1.)make me pretty fucking hot

and 2.)make me not jealous, but make me feel like... what exactly have I been doing wrong. and I can't figure an answer.
I can't relate to anyone who regrets losing it that early, I probably never will be able to considering my position... I was a very sexual child, I masturbated when I was 7, I wanted badly to fuck girls since about that age, I was always too shy to even talk to girls because my parents... deterred that.
I'm sorry for all that I'm pretty fucking depressed right now, and I have no one to vent on. I'm feeling that alot of my "friends" are only friends to a certain degree and not willing to listen to my problems (another reason I'm depressed) and the ones who really are my friends must be tired of listening. And much like how I can't understand the situation that is theirs and which belongs to many here, they can't understand mine anyways. I'm really ready to give up on love.
I'm sorry. I'm a wreck. I'm ready right now to give up on more than love, I've really screwed myself over in so many ways after having been given so much...
Slade