GreenEyes: that is the question.

Some guy I went on a date with over a year and a half ago has sprung up in my life recently. *We only met one time out of a spoof but I did enjoy the evening. *We kissed and I did forget about that until he brought it up the other day. *Later on that night he had called me and yes we had phone sex. * :o

A day or two later he had im'd me saying he didn't want to lead me on and yad da da. *So hey such is life and I moved on. *Months later I had called him cause I had found his number and we just talked. *A smart man and interesting.

Then months go by again and now he starts to im me. *My recent dilema is on Friday he tells me he is amourous. *Shit I can relate it has been a while for me too. *He wants to meet but the timing isn't right for me. *So we kind of agree on next weekend. *

Last night he im's me and we talk. *For whatever reason I asked him if he got lucky this weekend for I remember how urgent he seemed to have been in conversation. *He said, "yes, I got together with some woman I have been corresponding with on line". *He then proceeds to tell me that he self pleasured himself thinking of me and how great he thinks we would be together. *(blowing on my fingers right now and sitting up proud cause I know how good I can be *;) )

I think and think again. Yes, he offers potential but yet he is like me commttment phobic or just too unsure on what exactly he wants. *Basically the feeling I get is just a fuck buddy. *When I say to him you should give it time with this woman and see where it goes, he agrees. *Another sign to me that he might want to date her. *I am too old to fight over a man or to play the games. *You either want me or you don't. *

So I tell him in a diplomatic way that it isn't going to happen with us at this moment. *Realize I do appreciate his honesty and because of that I can base a logical decision than allow myself to be deceived. *He makes some comment that sometimes when things are meant to be they will happen and some things are worth waiting for. *He even says he feels like kicking himself over this all. *This confussed me even more. *

So what I am thinking with quesions.

1. *Did he just want a fuck buddy?

2. *Why did it take him this long to figure out he wanted to
* * sleep with me?

3. *If I did sleep with him who knows what this other woman
* * may have or for that matter what he might?

4. *Why do some men that a woman may fight over him with
* * another woman?

5. *I am just dumbfounded by it all and confused.

Don't worry I know I made the right decision in telling him no for now but at the same time I might end up kicking myself also. *To me I just do not think it is going to happen this late now. *Realize on our initial hanging out I was open to explore a sexual or relationship with him. *A year and a half later a lot in my life has changed and it makes me wonder how he could be so patient over it all.

I suppose that most women, well this one, wants to feel that a man will die for her. *That or at least give me the impression that he will. *To move heaven and earth. *Something like I want him to feel I am giving him.

OK discuss.