Tender: [quote author=GreenEyes link=board=women;num=1064768529;start=20#29 date=10/07/03 at 19:03:56]
*It all depends on what is going to make YOU happy in the long run. *To wait or not to. *Whatever you decide it is your decision and that is a good thing that you can decide for yourself.

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thats just the thing though for me,
i *thought* that i would be happy with the decision i made,
but well i was
very
wrong. :'(

and it was a decision, not like a heat of the moment thing. and looking back, i still say that i loved him.
but it just wasnt meant to be for some reason.
at that i say i very much agree with what john said here.
but on the other hand,
i can very much understand what green eyes is saying about the 'if i knew' thing. sometimes its easy to look back and see all the time and opportunities missed... not just talking about sex here... but life in general...
when we live every day thinking tomarow will be better or different somehow...
sooner or later you wake up to see that today was yesterdays tomarow... make sense??
my grandma always used to say...
dont wish your life away...
sigh.
well all that babbling...all of it makes sense i guess, but doesnt change anything...
:(
Tender