anonymous_pole: I have many points I'd like to touch on regarding this, but I'll have to keep this brief for the time being. This may be a difficult read since I can't see through the tears and I'm not familiar enough with the keyboard to type when I can't see it. Reading your experience refueled the pain I've been blocking out for the last couple years. Your first 2 posts in this thread describe my recent life nearly word for word. The only notable differences are my age(29), the fact that I haven't the means to visit a doctor,and I am alone... so at least my problem isn't dragging someone else down with me. The main purpose for me replying right now is to communicate what I believe to be the root of my problem...as it could possibly be a major factor with you, too. I have been severely sleep-deprived for about 10 years now and it has taken a major toll on my entire life. My thought processes are extremely messed up...for an example, all you have to do is look at how poorly this(or any other post I've made here) is written...quite ridiculous with an IQ of 163. Anyway, since you have been waking up so much through the night, you are undoubtedly sleep-deprived to some extent and that screws up your entire system.Whatever you do,get some sleep...it may quite possibly save your (sex)LIFE. I guess Allie summed it up best when she said "MOVE! NOW!!"