janec2000uk: Hi Long_knight:

I understand why you might have mixed feelings about such an important moment in your life (i.e., losing your virginity), but on the whole your experience seems to be quite a positive one. Perhaps my morals are lacking, I'm not sure, but she sounds like she was just full of life and a very sexual person. Who knows what her relationship was with her husband? I wouldn't let that aspect of your 'inauguration' spoil the wonderful memory of the first time you made love to a woman. Isn't it a lot of young men's fantasy to lose their virginity with a more worldly and experienced woman?

It does sound like she was attracted to your size, at least intially, and perhaps your youth as well. I've never met a straight woman who wasn't at least curious about what it would feel like to be intimate with a well endowed male. Think of it this way, as the other respondent suggested, perhaps it was a win-win situation. Your first time was incredibly special, and you gave a woman a great deal of pleasure and sexual satisfaction. Be happy :-)

P.S. A young man with sensitivity, a conscience, AND a huge penis!!! You married? Lol.