I honestly started at age 5. I don't know how, but I just started doing it. A few times I was daring and did it very close to my dad, not really understanding what I was doing.

I finally got myself to stop doing it--loved doing it on the toilet and in the tub--at, maybe, 6th grade. I was proud of myself. Then one day in 8th grade, I sat down to go to the bathroom and discovered something new inside me. It's been a regular occurance ever since.

I used to read Dear Abby/Ann Landers and get off to some of the confessions--a man who didn't close his bathroom blinds not realizing someone was watching him every morning until she sent him a video of it. I then started creating my own letters in my head . . . "My dad walks around naked," "I saw my dad jacking off" type stuff. It was very hot to me then.