I work in a juvenile detention center, and over 70% of the inmates assigned there have suffered sexual abuse as a young child. Some of them have been abused by parents, grandparents, siblings, aunts, uncles, teachers, priests, etc.
They come from all walks of life, all races, all stratas of economic abilities; I work in a unit comprised of male clients, so it doesn't matter to a sick s.o.b. if it's a female or a male.
I know it must have been tough for you, but you have to be stronger and realize you have to sit thru an uncomfortable experience listening to what this child, this victim, went through. That poor kid had to live through it and has to deal with it every day for the rest of her life.
You owe it to her, to hear what happened, make a decision, and stand up for her rights, because no one was there to help her when that animal was raping her.
I feel for you, bro. I honestly do. But we, as citizens, are called on to perform our sacred duty as a juror, to ensure justice be done for the weak and innocent.