You're leading this guy on if you continue to talk to him every day and NOT meet. What are you so scared of? You say you're bisexual but could actually be totally gay. Do you really give other people's opinions about your life that much credence that you'd enter into a loveless miserable marriage instead of being with someone you actually have feelings for? Stop being such a baby and meet the guy. Quite frankly, if I were him, I'd have dumped you. No way I'd talk on the phone to a love interest every day for a year if they kept making excuses for not being in the same room as me. Or did you lie about how you look or something and you're afraid that you'd be busted for not being a blonde adonis with a twenty inch dick?