He's not like a stalker. I mean, at first I told him I wasn't looking for a relationship but now, slowly, thats what I have with him. Although he's more into the relationship than I am. At times that makes me feel like I've lead him on because he is so in love and I'm just seeing what it feels like to have a relationship with a guy.

I do care about him and just don't want to hurt him or lead him on any further.

I don't know if its selfish of me to want to meet him to see what it would be like to go on a date with a guy or just be myself around someone. I dunno what will happen, but it looks like I'll find out. He e-mailed me hotel research tonight.