Wow I just joined and was just looking around and I came across your post. I understand fully now lonely it can be when parents are too busy working but I can not understand how or why you've been made fun of or why you feel you do about how you look. I am 46 and do enjoy the company of a younger man but I say this in all sincerity that you are magnificent in every way imaginable. You also seem very sensitive and charming and very genuine. You seem to have the whole package and I do hope you realize that now. You have certainly made my initial introduction to this site very pleasant. And soon I will get my act together and get involved. I just wanted to tell you thanks.