My first was with my first boyfriend, he has a nine inch cock, and I have been a size queen ever since. That's the truth. If your first is huge, you judge everything against it in the future. Not that I haven't had guys since with much smaller dicks and had a great time. It is more psychological. Also as a gay bottom, I think bigger dicks don't hurt as much. Once they are in, they fill you up, and don't bang around. Smaller dicks can jam and jab alll over the place if the top isn't careful.