Hi bguy, I empathise because in a smaller way I've experienced a similar situation. Had emotionally abusive relationships that I didn't get anything out of, even though nothing that bad. I'm quite shy in real life and was a virgin long after my friends had lost theres, though not 31. Eventually I met a very "experienced" (to be euremistic!) guy, I was pretty nervous but managed to hide it and had great sex first time with him, so much so that he came back for more and more! That did a lot to boost my confidence as he never knew it was my first time. I'm not necessarily saying have sex with the first woman you can, just that maybe you'll be surprised it comes fairly naturally. Plus I didn't regret doing it with someone I wasn't going to have a relationship with and it hasn't stopped me from having a happy relationship since.

You seem like a really nice guy and you are definitely cute in my opinion, plus most women would regard a tool your size as big bonus! So I don't think you should have a major problem finding whatever sort of relationship you're after.

Just my 2c.