FuzzyKen, your post was spot on. It's eerie how accurately you have described things. My relationship with her actually dates back to 1994, because we dated through college. It has been tough to come to grips with the fact that the last decade of my life has essentially been thrown away/wasted and now I'm starting over. But I've now seen enough people here and elsewhere to know that I've still got a good chance at happiness and won't be a virgin forever.