While I have been a member of this site for a very short time, I have wondered the entire time when this question would be asked. I'm 70% gay / 30% straight. 70% gay is probably because I'm in the closet except for my closest friend and a couple of others that know the truth (that I play for both teams). I, too, was 'trained' that I would marry a girl, settle down, have kids, etc. I've done that. But, during my adulthood, I can't suppress my feelings for men...wish I could but can't. Not being able to have what I want may be the reason my yearning for men is 70% while my steady/hetero side of 30% is taken care of via my wife. Love her to death and wouldn't trade her for anything but I simply cannot suppress my feelings.

Currently I am on heavy-duty pain medicine due to a kidney infection (and stones) -- so -- currently I have no desire for either one.