Alright, it might sound stupid, but it's the truth. I envy people with foreskin.

I was circumcised at birth, not for religious purposes, not for aesthetics, just because my parents were misinformed.

I was alright with being circumcised for the longest time. Hell, I'd even advocated for it. Up until a few months ago. Then I did some research.

Makes me feel pretty shitty knowing that I'm missing out.

I've researched, asked questions, posted on forums, but I've never been able to find an answer. At some point, one of my friends found out and gave me a ton of shit for it. I can't help it, I just want to get over it.

The next few months were pretty bad, I couldn't get the concept out of my head. It was manageable though, I was just sensitive about the topic.

I finally brought the topic up with my Mother one night. She explained that she was doing what "the doctor says was best." And I understand that. She was misinformed, she didn't know, she just wanted to keep me safe. I told her about how I was upset about it. She doesn't keep secrets well.

Word got out that I wanted my foreskin back. She treated my secret like it was no big deal. They laughed at me. Made me feel even shittier.

Well, I tried to convince my sister to not have her newly born son circumcised. That ended with her and her husband yelling at me, telling me that uncircumcised penises are "uncivilized and unnecessary." They didn't even listen to what I had to say. Had it done anyways.

Now they all make fun of me and give me shit for wanting it back. I just feel like... I don't even know, I just hate feeling this way.

Like I said, I've posted the same question several places. I get a ton of stupid responses like "who wants that anyways," "women like cut better," "you'll get more oral if you're cut," and the ever popular "get a boyfriend who's uncut, I'm sure he'll let you play with it all you want." I'm sick of getting those. I'm gay, I've got a boyfriend who's uncut. I don't care about his, or about how great it is to have one, I just want to get over losing mine. It makes me so upset.

I should also mention that I'm not interested in restoration. I wouldn't be able to lie to myself like that.

I just want to get over it. Any help is appreciated.