Do you want to handle a large cock or do you wish that your cock was huge so you could handle it and mess with it? It's a subtle distinction, but I think an important one. We all want the biggest steak right? We all love huge and tall skyscrapers and the cities of the world all try to outdo each other with taller and taller buildings. When we humans want a hot dog... would we rather have an Oscar Meyer weiner (skinny) or a Ball Park frank (they plump when you cook em')? Young men all wish that they had a big and thick muscled frame instead of their "normal" bodies. We all love the majesty of the tall and thick trees of the Redwood forest.

It is a human condition to be interested in big and thick cocks... it has NOTHING to do with being gay!!!

You know what are the signs that you might be gay?

1). Wanting to passionately kissing a man
2). Wanting to feel his body next to yours
3). BEING ATTRACTED TO HIS ASS and in general getting turned on by men's butts.
4). Loving the way a man's natural musk smells
5). Wanting a man to rub his mustache on your face and loving to feel a man with a beard go down on you.
6). Being attracted to beard stuble
7). Being turned off by viewing a vagina that has large labia
8). Wanting to stick your cock up a rectum...
9). Wanting to rub and touch a hairy ass
10). Wanting to dance with a man.

I don't know about your specific situation and how you really feel, but if you want to hold a big thick cock in your hands and you are completely attracted to women... you might be bi, and some experimentation should help you in your decision, I would encourage it. Although if you know that you aren't attracted to the man behind the cock, then you should start a program of enlarging your penis so you can feel a big thick cock that is your own.

Good luck man!!!!